Over Again~Albus

It had been a few days and everything just kept replaying over and over in his head. It hurt, he couldn't sleep, he barely ate. The image of Albus running to him, taking him in his arms begging him to take it back, telling him he didn't mean it, Ben didn't mean it....he didn't mean it but at the time he was too tired to chase after Albus, he was too hurt to chase after him when he walked away again, he couldn't. Ben sat there this very moment, ditching his potions class as he sat underneath a tree not far from the Whomping Willow, his back against the tree he sat beneath, his eyes beneath dark sunglasses to keep people from seeing the bags and the bruising that was forming under his eyes from lack of sleep. His eyes were fixated on the big willow in the not so far distance, he watched as birds posted up on it watching their moves so that the tree wouldn't kill them or hurt them in any way, every so often the tree would shutter or would snap and knock a poor bird off killing it before it could even hit the ground. In Ben's mind this tree was much like his relationship with Albus and he saw this. The birds were Albus and Ben was the tree, the boy had felt so much like he needed to watch every move he made or Ben would snap at him. This was ridiculous, Ben wasn't supposed to be searching inside of himself, he was supposed to be getting over the boy not dwelling on it. The sad part was that even that night after Albus had ran back and Ben had done nothing, he had gone right to his common room and grabbed Chloe taking the spunky girl to his dorm, he got her drunk and she loved on him, he didn't use her, he always protected Chloe, he always loved her and she knew that, but after that, after they had their fun....he cried infront of the girl, he cried and admitted for the first time to someone else about he and Albus, and he was lucky that Chloe actually said she'd keep her mouth shut this time and she comforted him. Ben shook himself from his thoughts as his head tilted back against the tree he was trying so hard not to fall asleep but days without rest was not healthy and his body was hating him for it. His eyes drooped and he started snoring until he heard footsteps and he shook himself awake his eyes darting over seeing Albus not too far, but Ben didn't move, it wasn't his job to move, it wasn't his job to fix this this time, he had put the cards in Albus's hand, he wondered what the boy was doing though, foolishly he wished Albus was looking for him.

Albus tried to keep distance from all those who impacted his mood lately. It wasn't the easiest thing to do, avoiding people you loved yet he didn't want to cause a burden on them as well. Albus didn't want to talk about his relationship problems with anyone else, really it all seemed so messed up to him. Albus had went on his second date with Frankie, had a fun night with Aiden, and then spend the rest of his days forcing himself to pay attention to his studies and keep from depression. A couple select Slytherins wouldn't allow him to be so upset, not like the night he came back to the common room after breaking down in front of Ben. Albus was still upset with his display of desperation that night. In all honesty he was scared to lose people. Deep down as much as the boy told himself he didn't need those he was closest with, but he really did. In all actuality he wasn't independent as he put off. With was disappointing to his ego.

Albus sighed gathering his books from the library table. The homework he had just finished, had been an accomplishment in it's self. Albus had a free period next he would like to go and enjoy the weather change and possibly get some reflecting done. Albus walked down the levels of the castle first stopping off at the basement. He used his prefect charm to get himself a cup of coffee, enjoying the cafine. Then made his way to the outside. Albus took in a deep breath of fresh air and walked around the ground sipping his coffee. The small buds forming on the trees caused him to smile. Second chances were always nice, change was imminent and he was just going to have to deal with the curves life tossed his way. Al had contemplated harming himself, the night he broke down in front of Ben. Instead he just spent his night weeping listening to his dorm mates bicker about his sobbing. Albus sighed and walked closer to the trees, he had remembered his first time with Hugo and Fred being late for the Hogwarts express, and crashing into the large temperamental whomping willow. Good times were had at Hogwarts, and in the back of his mind he could hear his father stating Hogwarts was a second home.

Albus smiled and put his arms out twirling around in the wind. Why sit there and regret everything he had lost. Albus finished his cup of coffee, feeling a bit hyper now. There was only one way to fix things, he needed to fix himself first. Albus was a dysfunctional mess, granted the cards he was dealt in life, yet he did try to enjoy himself when alone. Soon enough his eyes were closed and he was twirling like a fool with a small smirk on his face. Albus had always known how to be a loner and have fun on his own. Then suddenly he lost balance tripping over something. Albus fell right on his bottom opening his eyes to see the cause on his fall. Someone's leg. He let his aqua eyes travel up the boys body til he saw the dark sunglasses of Ben. Albus blushed, it must have been quite the scene. In this moment he didn't feel hostel, he felt okay and he was thinking clearly. "Sorry, clumsy me." Albus claimed brushing off the dirt from Ben's pants. A grin toyed on his lips as he reached for Ben's glasses taking them off and putting them on. He puffed out his chest giving the most cocky, and vain look he could muster. "Do I look cool Benny?" Al asked giggling, finally looking over to meet eyes with his ex-boyfriend's.

Dark bags, circled the older boy's eyes and he looked down thinking of how stupid he must have looked dancing around, carefree. How could he try and help Ben? Albus wondered if the boy would even let him attempt. "What are you doing out here all alone?" Albus asked taking off the boy's sunglasses handed them back to him. Deep down he knew he was the reason Ben wasn't sleeping properly. Albus wanted nothing more then to fix Ben, and at least try to make him smile. The shadow Ben's facial hair showed and Al knew Ben was now in the worst of spirits, when he wasn't taking care of his most prized possession, himself. "Ben you don't look so great, how can I help?" Albus asked his tone soft as he reached out to the one boy he ever had feelings for.

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Ben almost didn't react to the sudden thud that occurred beside him but he glanced down briefly until he saw it was only Albus which he looked away until the younger boy decided that it was appropriate to remove his sunglasses from his face and Ben scowled briefly but didn't reach for them. He eyed Albus for a moment as the boy made a fool of himself and when his glasses were given back, he simply placed them back onto his face and looked the younger boy over again in thought, why was he all care free all of a sudden, he seemed so heart broken the other night and yet now, now it was as if it meant nothing to the boy, nothing that Ben hadn't slept in nights, nothing that Ben was skipping classes just to avoid him, nothing that Ben wasn't even eating as much as he should. Ben glared at Albus beneath his sunglasses though the younger could not see. "What am I doing out here alone? I was trying to avoid you but I guess that doesn't happen or work" he said honestly as he pushed his sunglasses onto his head and he rubbed his eyes yawning a bit but he glanced away from Albus. He was so exhausted, starving too but he was starving to the point that even the thought of food made him want to puke. He cringed a bit but pushed it aside as he heard Albus's words and he looked back to the Potter boy,"Don't you think you've helped enough?" he said his stubbornness showing as he hufed a bit and pushed his sunglasses back down over his eyes. "Don't you have boys to go gallivanting around with, ones that aren't afraid to hide their relationships with you or something?" he asked, his raised eyebrow visible above the sunglasses brim. He skimmed his bottom lip with his teeth and pulled out his pack of cigarette but groaned when he saw there were none in there and he chucked the empty box aside and folded his arms over his chest,"You couldn't help me if you wanted to, unless you've got cigarettes, whiskey or a gun, aside from that, I don't think you could help me" he mused in all honesty.

When Ben ever so bluntly admitted he was trying to avoid Albus the boy felt his happy mood shift. He looked to the small ink stain on his finger while Ben's words hit home. Perhaps he shouldn't have been so nice to Ben, maybe he should have just walked right by him. In reality if Ben was going to act like this, he wasn't sure he needed him as much as his heart told him. Albus always followed his heart, but this time his brain was speaking louder then ever, and he'd just get hurt if he persisted. Albus peeked up watching Ben yawn, the older boy looked so tired, yet how was he at fault for Ben's lack of sleep. Ben didn't follow him after his display. Albus remembered sitting in that class room crying for a long time, ever sound that night caused him to have hope. Hope that Ben would walk in and confirm his words to be true, however it didn't prevail in the end. Albus sat there and felt the sting of love that night. Then on top of it all he walked back to his common room, puffy eyed, and groggy listening to the comments of his house mates. There was nothing that brought him that much shame, looking like a lost puppy dog without a purpose.

The younger boy sucked his teeth at Ben's next words, he had helped enough? Was that suppose to make Albus Potter feel guilty? As recalled Ben's actions were the reason for the break up, and he wouldn't take blame for that. Remaining silent he halfly smirked at the boy's comment about boys. There was one in particular that would be proud of him for his next moves as he watched Ben go though his empty cigarette pack. A gun, how dramatic. Albus got to his feet and brushed the grass from his pants, and looked down at Ben. He licked his lips and knelled down resting his bottom on the back of his shoes looking into the boys dark sunglasses. "Your right Benny, is that what you want to hear? That I'm suppose to cry and harm myself over you? Lose sleep and health because you messed up our relationship, yeah?" Albus asked as he snickered to himself shaking his head. "I won't do it." Albus confirmed standing up. "I don't think you need whiskey, cigarettes or a gun, your own guilt will kill you." Albus stated harshly as he turned his back to the boy. "And by the smell of you, the only think you need is a bath and some hygiene products." Albus snapped scrunching his nose. Gallivanting with boys sounded real night right about now, he'd go find someone to entertain himself. "Yeah a guy that is not embarrassed, or scared to call me something special to him, and treat me as such as well. That sounds about right, I like that idea, and by the way. Piss off, because I do not feel bad for you." Albus stated walking away he was sure he made his point very clear. Albus didn't want things to go down like that, but he wouldn't be the only one fighting nor would he batter his heart to be fooled, by a brown eyed boy that couldn't get over his own pride. Not not, not ever.

Ben watched Albus and listened to the boy's words frankly unamused, oh the little Potter finally grew a pair, good for him. Ben rolled his eyes when Albus began to walk away and he thought for a long moment as he watched the boy's back, he skimmed his bottom lip with his teeth and he scowled finally pushing himself to his feet. He walked after the boy and grabbed him by the wrist turning him around to face him. Ben looked down into the younger boy's eyes and he pushed his sunglasses onto his head again as he met Albus's cold blue gaze,"What did you want Albus huh? I gave you so much and you can't stand here and tell me I didn't when I did, I took you places you never went before, I catered to you, I loved you and hell I'll never stop, but what do you want from me?" Ben asked almost desperately as he held the boy's wrist. "I didn't go after you, is that what you wanted? Me to chase you the other night? Would that have made you change your mind? Because I honestly don't think it would have, what do you want? DO you want me to stand outside your window, serenade you? Bring you flowers and puppies and gifts, what do you want?" he asked it was obvious that the elder had such a straining in his mind of trying to find out how to fix this, how to make Albus happy, how...how HOW? Ben flinched slightly at his racing thoughts and he stepped back letting Albus go but just as he did his eyes flitted up and he saw a giant branch of the WHomping Willow coming toward them. Lucky for Ben James had shown him something not long ago, Ben quickly grabbed Albus around the waist and slid forward toward the trunk of the whomping willow and the two fell down into a hole. Ben sighed finding his back hitting the ground and Albus on top of him, they were literally underneath the giant tree now, underground in a passage way. Ben sighed looking up at Albus through slight darkness,"If you get off, I'll show you something" Ben whispered as he shifted and he got up placing Albus on his feet he took the boy by the hand and led him down the passage way,"If you can manage to trust me at all that is" he added.

Had he been satisfied with his actions of the day thus far? Perhaps, but there wasn't any reason for celebration. Albus wondered if he was more disappointed and numb then, happy with the way things ended. Deep down he was hurt, and this weight of the world wasn't something he liked to carry. It distracted the younger boy from his obligations, and work. Albus refused to fail, yet being so caught up in his relationship issues was over all stressful. Soon enough he felt Ben grab his wrist and he was spun around now facing the boy. Albus looked down at Ben's hand and then back up to the older boy's eyes, fully unamused in expression. At Ben's words he narrowed his eyes. The Slytherin knew there was some trust behind them, as he sighed and let Ben finish questioning him. Albus felt Ben let go of his wrist and he crossed his arms over his chest stubbornly, taking time to let Ben's questions set in.

In all actuality he didn't know what he wanted, he was very indecisive about love, yet he did know what made him happy. Standing here listening to Ben's rhetorical questions just made him tired. Tired of fighting, and arguing. "You may have given me things Ben, hell you may have given me everything I asked for and more, materialistically." Albus corrected letting his hands drop to his sides. "Do you think that is what I wanted? Or do you think it was more along the lines of those feelings you provided for me? That safe, loving feeling you gave me. The way you made me feel special or cared for? No, it's material your tossing in my face." Albus stated ruffling his black hair. The way Ben held him those nights in the room of requirement, even after they fought about their intimate standings. "You are selfish deep down, cruel even, but I won't deny the fact that you loved me." Albus added not sure where he was going with all this. "As for singing outside my window, save it for someone who wants that. Giving me gifts, give them to someone who needs them, because I don't. I wanted to be your everything, I wanted to be the reason you wanted to better yourself, and kill your selfish ways. I wanted to be so much more, I didn't want to be a dirty little secret or something you were embarrassed about." Albus stated blunt, and before giving Ben time to object he spoke again. "Yes, Ben I felt that way and it hurt me emotionally, broke me even. That alone pushes me away from you. All the gifts, and the songs in the world couldn't kill that feeling." The boy stated looking down for a moment.

Albus needed to get his mind straight but as he tried to push away his thoughts, he felt Ben's hands around his waist and he looked up at the branch that was coming for them. Albus gulped and his eyes widened as he was forced to run with Ben toward the tree the branch impacting on the earth behind them. Albus closed his eyes knowing Ben wouldn't lead him into harms way, and soon enough he was sliding into darkness. At the end he had a soft landing as he rested his head on Ben's chest for a moment letting he familiar warmth take him over. Albus blushed for a moment, thank Merlin it was dark down here. The boy regained his strength as perked himself up looking down at his ex-boyfriend. "See something naughty? I have already seen that, I was unimpressed." Albus teased snickering to himself. In this moment he felt it was okay, yet he still stood his ground. Albus sucked his teeth and got to his feet dusting himself off. James kept the map from him, though the boys fought over it for years, when one needed it, it was negotiated. Therefore he wasn't quiet familiar with this place. In his past he heard stories, yet he'd let Ben show him whatever it was he was getting at. Albus looked at Ben's hand motioning for his and he closed his eyes allowing the boy to hold it. Albus didn't really do well in the dark, he did have fear of the unknown, which is why he wasn't placed in Gryffindor. At Ben's words he quirked a brow. "Do I trust a boy who is sleep deprived and angry with me? Well that is an interesting question." Albus mused sarcastically as he moved a little closer to Ben looking up. "Just because it's dark down here, and I've trusted you with more before." Albus stated, he gave Ben his heart at one point, that alone was bigger then whatever could come to them under the fierce, aggressive tree.

Ben watched Albus for a long moment when the boy was on top of him he couldn't see through the dark but if he knew better he knew the younger boy was blushing. After placing Albus on his feet again though, Ben disregarded it for himself as he pulled gently on the younger's hand and he gently lead the way down the small dark path. "Smart ass, no its not naughty" he chuckled,"Unless you want it to be" he added teasingly with a wink though he knew Albus couldn't see much of his face. Ben narrowed his eyes and put his sunglasses back on when light came into view and he led Albus up and into the Shrieking Shack. He helped the boy up and then he stood upright and brushed Albus off a bit from the dirt they were in. "Do you know where we are?" he asked as he gently led Albus up the creaking staircase and he sighed to himself pushing one of the bedroom doors opened. He let go of Albus' hand and he took out his wand for a moment, he murmured a few incantations and in an instant the room was clean and on the table in the corner was an array of treats including strawberry milkshakes and cake. Ben smirked and pointed at the table,"Hungry?" he teased before stowing his wand in his pocket and walking over he picked up one of the shakes and held it out to Albus. "Maybe I looked at everything in the worst way possible, and maybe I thought that material things were the only way that I could keep you, but you know, the long nights holding you in my arms, that was what meant the most to me too" he whispered admittedly in defeat.

At least Ben recognized his talents of being being a wise ass. In ways he wanted to say thank you and own up to the title but he refrain from it. At Ben's next words he looked down and blushed, Ben always knew how to make his palms sweaty, as he suddenly lost his courage and became shy. What was he doing, this was Ben? "Oh of course, you know how I like it Benny." Albus mused wrapping his arm around the older boy's waist leaning into him. It was odd how one second they could be fighting and the tension could defuse in an instant. As the two walked he remembered tails of the willow tree, but James took the marauders map so he never braved the journey alone. It would be a new sight but he doubted it would be suitable for hanging out. As his blue eyes locked with the light he inched forward not letting go of Ben. He wasn't sure what he was walking into therefore it was best to stay on the safe side and keep in numbers. Once he entered the place he looked around at the dusty shack. "The Shrieking Shack, dad had mentioned it before when he was telling us stories. I have never been in here though." Albus confirmed looking up to Ben as the boy tidied up the room. Albus moves stray pieces of tiles around with his foot unsure of the reasoning for being there. If he didn't know any better he knew Ben would lead him into a bedroom of sorts.

Albus looked over his shoulder at Ben's mention of being hungry. He moved closer and took the cup hesitantly his eyes never leaving Ben's. Albus brought the straw to his lips and took a sip of the familiar drink. The mixture of strawberry and vanilla caused him to smile and he almost chocked on a laugh. "It's your favorite flavor Benny!" Albus claimed grinning, he knew no one would understand the meaning of his comment, but them. It was one of those personal insiders that caused them to share laughs on many occasions. "It's missing a hint of fire whiskey, you remember you ruined my milkshake with whiskey Benny?" Albus asked cocking his head as he walked over to one of the cakes and stuck his finger in the frosting. Albus turned to Ben and brought his finger to his lips sucking the frosting off in a seductive manner. Ben would remember that as well. Albus smirked and listened to Ben's words that caused him smile and teasing mood to fade away. His thoughts began to rush as he walked up to Ben and reached up removing the boy's sunglasses. "Is that so?" Albus asked taking Ben's hands in his own. It was rare for the older boy to admit he was wrong, but everyone was human and there was room to make mistakes. How else would one learn?

"If you wanted to keep me all you had to do was show me everything I thought was wrong, all you had to do was keep me close and safe. Love me for me and I know I don't always make that easy, but who said love was suppose to be easy?" Albus asked taking Ben's hands and placing them on his own hips. "I don't trust an emotion that can make you so hurt you detach from yourself, it's scary but I trusted you." Albus admitted reaching up wrapping his arms around Ben's neck and pulled him down a bit so he didn't feel so short and the two to stay at eye level. "I just don't know how I can trust you again, I don't know how to get over the things I have accepted as done. It doesn't mean I don't care about you Ben. I just don't think I can stand being hurt. I walked into the Slytherin common room and cried my eyes out the other night. I just kept telling myself we were not meant to be and I started to believe it." Albus whispered not wanting to let his gaze unlock with Ben's. The boy sighed at his heart racing in his chest as he let his hands fall from around Ben's neck and he walked over laying on the bed looking at the ceiling. The boy cringed at the thought of how many people Ben and James could have brought down here before for other purposes. "I just want to be happy, I just want you to be happy. You think it doesn't hurt me as well? It kills me inside and I want to hurt myself for hurting you. But I also know that, that wouldn't solve anything." Albus admitted softly as he rubbed his wrist absently.

There was too much tension for him, he leaned up looking over at Ben. "Are you just going to stand there all day or are you going to come hold me?" He asked feeling slightly alone in his own thoughts. Albus' mind was filled with memories and he was hurting because of them. Why was it every time he pushed this feeling away it returned when looking into those brown eyes? Ben had a power over him, and he wasn't fond of it. It made him feel weak, he just needed to escape from his own mind before he drove himself past the point of no longer being able to return to sanity.

Ben watched for awhile every subtle move that the younger made from the moment they entered the shrieking shack, how his feet moved along the floorboards, gently kicking aside tiles to the way his shoulders kind of hunched a bit as he walked. Ben couldn't help himself just everything the boy did, everything about him caught his attention. When they had entered the room and Ben had taken the cleaning upon himself with a swish of his wand he also watched as Albus took the shake from him with the glint of happiness that twinkled just slightly in the right corner of his blue eyes. He took in a deep breathe as he skimmed his bottom lip with his teeth listening to how he spoke of the whiskey and he scrunched his nose a bit allowing a slight laugh to escape him.

"Oh yeah the whiskey was the best part wasn't it? You were such a cute little drunk though Albus, I don't think I'll ever forget that" he said with a genuine smile plastered along his lips.

Listening further he looked down, all he had to do was show him he cared, but not by materialistic things like he had thought, by just being there, by fighting for him. Ben sighed as he heard Albus' footsteps move and he now found his hands being taken in the boy's smaller hold and placed onto the hips of the Slytherin boy. He bit down on his bottom lip when Albus pulled him down to eye level and he sighed getting lost in those blue eyes again still listening, it wasn't time for him to interrupt the boy's thoughts and honesty but when he got a window of opportunity he spoke again.

"I don't want you to believe it Albus...I was stupid, and foolish but I.." he paused trying to gain his jumbled thoughts into proper order as he watched Albus walked over to the bed and he watched the curiousity, the thought in the younger boy's gleaming eyes that looked up at the ceiling.

He could tell Albus was distant, far away thinking about a number of things but Ben just stood there for a long moment examining him, how his eyes shifted from the ceiling to an unknown spot here and there and back to the ceiling. Ben even began to notice how every so often the boy's foot would twitch probably out of an anxiety or an inability to sit still. He pulled his bottom lip back into his mouth and he closed his eyes until he heard the beckoning voice again and his tired eyes jolted open before he walked over and reluctantly crawled into the bed with Albus.

"Of course I'll hold you, anything to make you happy Albus...anything because if you're happy, I'm happy" Ben whispered, and that was it, that was exactly what he needed to start believing and it was true. Ben knew that he loved Albus unconditionally at this point, so much that yes at times it hurt and yes, at times it was torturous and unbarable but the biggest part about loving this boy that he now held in his strong embrace, the most important thing about all of it, was to see this boy smile, to see him smile so bright that it touched his eyes.

Ben raked a gentle hand through Albus' hair as he closed his eyes his breathing relaxed and deep and he sighed out gently.

"Albus...I love you and I know I hurt you and I know it'll be hard for you to ever trust me again but I'll do whatever I have to to at least gain your trust back, your respect and from then on it I just want you happy whether its with me or someone else, I don't care, I just want..no need to see you smile, genuinely smile" he whispered tiredly.

At the sound of Ben's voice speaking of the whiskey he smirked and shook his head. "The strawberry is the best part Benny." Albus corrected with a wink, at Ben's reference to what he was like when he was drunk he blushed and looked down. Ben would be slightly disappointed if Albus told him that he always got promiscuous and flirty when he was drunk. It didn't just stop at Ben, but Albus knew he couldn't speak of that. It would hurt Ben to know the things he did when trying to fix himself. "I wasn't that cute, I think we argued a lot that night." Albus corrected as he ran the tip of his sneaker along the floor boards. "Unless your speaking of how affectionate, and cuddly I get." Albus added, he was needy when he was drunk and he didn't like to admit it. It was odd for him to be so independent when sober but just need to feel protected and loved when intoxicated. This was why he only drank around those he trusted, with a couple exceptions here and there.

Albus now looked into Ben's dark eyes, as the older boy's hands were placed on his hips. Ben grip made him feel secure as he explained the problems that consumed his broken heart. Every doubt, every flaw. It was all coming out and Ben didn't want to believe it. Albus knew deep down no one would want to believe things that hurt them. Initial shock, was a curse in it's self. Albus made his way to the bed and laid there looking at the ceiling antsy. It was like he could feel Ben's eyes studying him, as if every move he made was important. Some kind of indication of sorts. Albus wasn't in the mood to pick a part Ben's feelings, nor his thoughts. Deep down he understood Ben was hurting as much as he was, he just kept reminding himself of what he expected. Perhaps he set his expectation too high, and in the end they would fail him, but he had faith. Albus had many emotional walls he had put up recently. There wasn't much that could be said or done to break them now.

When he heard the footsteps, he tried to contain his smile. but Ben's words caused him to do just that. Albus' happiness wasn't too important in the past or at least that's what he thought, and now it was a requirement to keep Ben happy? Those arms around him felt so good, as he was shifted into his spot once upon a time. Albus closed his eyes and took in Ben's familiar scent, and the safe feeling crept through his body causing him to be warm and relaxed. It was too strong, the desire to be just where he was, he wanted to be held. To be loved for simply being who he was. Ben's fingers were soon running through his messy black hair and he exhaled moving a bit closer. Albus had a weakness when his hair was played with, it was soothing and sexy all in the same bit.

When Ben started to speak again Albus looked up into the boy's eyes and he listened to the words feeling the reality behind him. Trusting was hard, but for any type of relationship he needed to take risks. Albus always let Ben have the benefit of the doubt, and he was scared now just like before. No, this wasn't one of those times where Ben was speaking because he thought it was what Albus wanted to hear, it was real and genuine just like the smile that crossed his lips. "I think I can let you do that Benny and I love you as well, so much. Just don't make me regret giving you this chance, because if you screw it up...I'll never smile in your direction again." Albus stated bluntly. Of course he needed to let things from the past fade, all the hurt and anger needed to be pushed aside but not forgotten. "You look so tired handsome, you want to cuddle and nap? I may even give you the over nighter, and not take off before you wake up Benny." Albus mused smirking. The boy reached over putting his arm around Ben's waist as he pressed his chest against Ben's. Would he regret his decision? Only time would really tell.