Love Me Love Me~Jason

The thirst, it always creeped up on her at the worst of times. The middle of the night while all the rest of the little boys and girls slept, she lie awake. Coraline let a soft sigh escape her red lips as she crawled out of bed. She pulled on her jeans and a black tshirt before pulling her black robes over herself and she soon made her way out of the dorms. She passed Eli in the common room not to any surprise and she waved lightly to him,"You already feed?" she asked, she wasn't daft to others of her kind, she was very aware of who else was like her. When he nodded to her and gestured for her to shoo she rolled her eyes before leaving the common room and quietly and swiftly making her way out of the dungeons and through the big oak doors of the castle. Outside the air was cool but she could not feel it much and even if she could it would not effect her, she never got cold, never got hot, she was always...neutral with temperatures. She made her way across the grass and around the lake, her eyes glinting across the dark waters in her own entranced way before snapping herself out of it and entering the trees. She planned on hunting, deer maybe that were dumb enough to live within this forest but something caught her scent too quickly and she turned her head she had already gotten a decent distance into the woods but the smell of a mere human was not alright, and it was even worse when she could tell exactly which human it was. "Jason..."

[/b][/color] she whispered as she turned heading in the direction where she could hear him and smell him. She stopped a little ways behind him in the shadows, her crimson tinted eyes following his movements,"What are you doing out here?"[/b][/color] she asked as she didn't quite step out of the shadows yet but she knew he would know her voice quite well.[/blockquote]

He had had enough. Sure Jason loved giving the female population confidence, and he handed out compliments as if they were candy but it was just getting to him as of recently. He was the keeper of the Gryffindor quidditch team, he was handsome but he felt sort of used, toyed with even. Why he was over thinking now? Well he watched his darling Celia constantly flirt with other males and when Jason had convinced himself everything was going to go smoothly with her it wasn't true. Quite frankly he had never gotten jealous in his life and when it started to occur he knew he had to stop being so...'obsessive.' Fat chance, it was built in for him to act that way. Like his twin always told him if girls didn't like him for the way he handled his emotions, then they could kick rocks. Jules was always there for him to vent when he was hurt or had a lot on his mind, he trusted her to share his feelings. Jason wondered the grounds in his plaid pajama pants and his hoodie. It was sort of cold but his adrenaline kept him going. He crept out when everything was getting quiet in the common room and made it outside past curfew, avoiding getting caught. Jason placed his hands into his hoodie pocket and wondered into the Forbidden forest. The danger didn't even phase him with his mood shifting so constantly. A sigh escaped his lips as he watched the fog exit his mouth maybe it was a little colder then he thought. He had wondered decently far into the forest when a familiar voice caught his ears. "Coraline?" Jason asked fearlessly walking toward her. At her question he entered the shadows shrugging. "I just had a lot on my mind, thinking I guess. Don't worry, I didn't follow you in here." He admitted shoving a hand through his hair. It would be common for her to think he was lying about following her but this time he was being honest. "What are you doing here?" He was aware of her condition learning her secret back in fourth year, they were friends and it was just something he stumbled on. Jason never judged her for it, he actually found it cool. Being immortal, being unique. If he didn't know any better she was probably preying on animals. "Never mind, I think this one is safe to assume." Jason muttered. "Can I stay with you, I promise I won't get in the way." He asked he didn't want to be in the forest alone, and he didn't want to leave her as well. With his father back at home telling him of the great Harry Potter's death and evil upraising, he had obligations to be protective of his friends, especially one as gorgeous as Coraline.

She was caught off guard slightly when he stepped into the shadows toward her and she hesitantly took a step back. She watched as he stopped not far from her and her eyes scanned over him, her mouth watering, she could hear his heart pounding lightly in his chest, the sound of his blood pumping through his veins, even the light sound of the breath leaving his mouth. It was driving her crazy being at such close proximity in her extreme state of thirst and she forced herself to look down and she dug her foot of her boot into the dirt,"Jason you're not safe...."

[/b][/color] she whispered her own chest heaving slightly with unnecessary intakes of air, he was too close, way too close. She stepped back slightly and she tried to block her senses from working but she couldn't. Her eyes darkened more and the veins became visible beneath her eyes and she looked up at him through her hair,"Jason...you're going to get hurt...I...I can't let you stay out here, especially not with me"[/b][/color] she said the struggle of hurt apparent in her voice, but she knew he was stubborn, she knew he wouldn't just leave at her pleading, he'd worry about her and try to make things ok that was the kind of boy he was. She chewed her bottom lip resisting for now,"Please..."[/b][/color] she managed to gasp out trying to hold her breath so she couldn't smell the sweet scent of his blood beneath his warm skin.[/blockquote]

Not safe? Jason looked down at his feet and moved a couple stones chewing the inside of his cheek. Why was she distancing herself from him? It wasn't like he was scared of her attacking him, he welcomed it. Jason was odd like that, if he couldn't be happy in life at least he would be useful to one girl if only for a moment. "You don't get it. I'm not leaving you in here alone. I'm not scared of you." Jason stated reaching down grabbing a sharp edged stone. He eyed it for a moment just thinking. Human blood must have been better and full of more nutrients then animal blood. The sound of the leaves crushing under her feet as she backed up caused him to frown as he pushed up his sleeve and brought the rocks jagged edge to his wrist slicing it decently deep. "Here, you know you need it, I want you to have it." Jason said his blood dripping on to the leaves staining the small amount of snow on the ground. "Blood-sickle." Jason muttered with a small chuckle referring to the crimson snow. His eyes glanced up seeing how well she could fight off her urges.

Was he crazy? What was he talking about, not being scared? He should be, he should be terrified and yet his heartbeat stayed steady and she watched his every movement, so calm and full of disreguard to her words. he bent down and grabbed a jagged rock as if it were nothing and her eyes widened guessing his actions before he even did it and she reached up covering her nose and mouth with her hand as her eyes shot down to his wrist watching it, the blood slowly roll along his pale skin, the drops slowly falling from his skin and down into the snow. A growl escape her lips and she tried so hard to hold back but what made this more difficult was he was practically beckoning her, his voice so sweet she couldn't fight back, she was hesitant as she dropped her hand from her face and though her fangs retracted in an almost vicious way she stepped forward slowly and her small hands reached out quickly taking his wrist in them, she yanked his wrist to her lips almost relentlessly. She knew the risks, she knew they could both get into trouble by the school if it was found that she had fed on a human so close to the school, but her eyes were in the back of her skull as she sunk her fangs into his skin, a purr escaping her lips as she allowed the warm liquid to drip down her throat and she in a swift movement pushed him up against the nearest tree, her body leaning against his to hold her up as she drank in a slightly euphoric state not knowing if she'd be able to stop herself.

Oh she was good, his gold eyes fell upon her covering her nose. If he had learned anything about vampires in all his years they tried to remain strong. It was only a matter of time before the blood tempted them enough though, some kind of weakness. It years they learned to control the cravens but he wasn't sure how old Coraline really was. It never occurred to him he should ask. In his eyes she was his age, just always going to be perfect and young. The thought danced in his mind, how amazing would it be to be forever young? Living For all eternity. One mistake and all you had to do was start over again, be who you wanted each time. Soon she subsided and let down her guard and he closed his eyes being backed up against the cold tree bark. Her fangs piercing his soft skin caused him to wince as he slowly exhaled and inhaled. His heart sped up as he felt the blood being sucked from him, his flesh warm against her cold lips. This was what he asked for, he enjoyed it keeping calm trusting her to not end him. Jason brought his hand up and ran his finger though her long brown waves trying to sooth her. A bit lightheaded at his point slowly lowered himself into a seated position. A question arose in his mind and he was hesitant to ask but he wanted to know the answer. "How do you deal with it?" Jason asked realizing his question was not complete. "Being a vampire, did it hurt? You know dying, being turned?" Jason whispered closing his eyes as she fed on him, he let his head hang resting his forehead on her shoulder. The smell of her hair filled his nose as he smiled a bit taking in her scent. Nothing smelled dead about Coraline, she always smelled perfect to his liking. It soothed him in his dizzy state, he wouldn't pull away. A sudden movement might trigger something inside her. "You can have more when you want it, but now I think you need to control yourself before I pass out, let me recuperate." Jason muttered nuzzling his face into her neck as he kissed once lightly. He wasn't sure if she had that kind of control but his mind was so blank he didn't really care too much.

Her purr grew at the feel of his fingers entangling in her hair and she rested a hand against his chest her other hand still cradling his wrist. When he moved and sat down against the tree she was pulled down with him now on her knees. She listened being slightly jolted out of her euphoric state by his questions. She thought for a moment still drinking until he said she needed to stop. He was right and she forced herself to pull back and she leaned against him shifting off of her knees and crawling into his lap. She burried her face against his neck and she wrapped her arms around his waist. He reminded her of Damon in a sense, he actually kind of looked like a younger version of him too which made this all the harder to be so close to him, he was kind, he was protective, everything her maker once was to her. She closed her eyes taking in his scent as she now debated on how to answer his questions. "It was painful...Damon had to lock me up for days, weeks even, months..."

[/b][/color] she whispered cringing slightly at how bad her hunger had been back then,"The slightest smell of a nearby human would drive me crazy...but I got through it, he let me feed off of him, vampire blood to other vampires can be personal and it is a stronger kind of blood it holds us over more"[/color] she whispered. She chewed the inside of her cheek,"I deal with it now more on my own when he isn't around, its hard but I manage, I feed on animals when I need to....sometimes I just suffer through the pain when I can't feed right away, it all depends really"[/b][/color] she said hoping she was answering his questions right. "Why do you want to know so much?"[/b][/color] she asked having the slightest feeling she might know why he was being so curious.[/blockquote]

Jason lifted his hoodie reaching to his undershirt as he ripped off a piece. He used his teeth to hold one end on the cloth as he wrapped the other around his wounded wrist making a tourniquet for himself. Jason allowed Coraline to get into his lap and he smiled letting her nuzzling into his neck. The goosebumps scattered his body from her warm breath on his skin and he took in her words while she spoke. Damon, he didn't know many of the other D'eath family but the name sounded familiar. Perhaps a class or two together. The two seemed to have a relationship of sorts. Speaking of how she was locked up made him wonder what it felt like, even as a child he was curious to things he did not know of. His mother always told him his curiosity would get him into a load of trouble but he always avoided listening to warnings. Jason was always in for the rush, an adventure something new. Even if it was riding the wild branch of the Whomping willow. As long as it seemed fun and interesting he was down to try it. "It sounds complex, must be harder with all these students around." Jason muttered lacing the fingers of one of his hands with hers. Why was she asking so many questions, well the answer was simple. "To kill curiosity." Jason admitted looking away for a second. It wasn't all a lie, part of it was true, being an Occlumens he was great at not changing his thought process or breathing patterns when lying. Therefor there was no telling when he was or not unless Jason himself want another to know. "I mean it sounds complicated, challenging. I'm just trying to figure out what I meant for..." Jason added, he'd share his feeling on the topic with Coraline. "Vampires don't have to be like everyone else, it's unique. Girls dig it and when you fuck up you only have to wait about 50 years and no one will remember it. As many chances as you want. Even with the complications it seems better then being..average. Purposeless." Jason let his words drift from his mouth as he looked into her eyes. "Did you want it to happen?" Jason asked chewing his bottom lip. It wouldn't sound as nice if it was forced upon someone. Perhaps they didn't want to live like a vampire. What others called a monster. No Coraline was not a monster, it was only a label for others to speak when they did not understand it that he was sure of.

He spoke so easily about his own curiosity and how he was simply just trying to kill it but even though she sensed that wasn't the case he gave no signs of lying. She didn't move though or falter and when his fingers laced with her's she squeezed his hand gently. "It's hard and yes it takes a lot of self control not to tear people apart around here" she whispered as she held him closer. A soft sigh escaped her lips against his neck and she knew the boy was digging deeper and deeper for a reason,"I was changed willingly, yes, he loved me at one point and promised me an eternity of loyalty and though we may not be comitted to one another he is still loyal to me so he never broke his promise it just hurts sometimes to know that I may never find a love like that again"

[/b][/color] she whispered. She grew saddenned now at this subject of conversation and she side glanced up at him, her eyes glinting against the slight moonlight that shone through the trees,"Why? Do you wish to be like this Jason? Be able to just run whenever a problem or mistake happens and eventualy everyone will die or forget your mistakes?"[/b][/color] she asked raising an eyebrow as she reached up with her free hand and brushed her fingertips along the side of his neck,"It is a hard price to pay for such a life....but it may be worth it in the end only you would be able to determine that"[/b][/color] she whispered actually considering it.[/blockquote]

The way she spoke of her creator and her saddened tone caused him to look at her concerned. Did he move on from her, was he daft? Jason let his mind process her words as he held her a little tighter. He was always the one sitting there in the females he flocked over's 'just friends' category so he was used to venting. As hopeless as her tone seemed to be he shook his head. "You will find love Coraline it's hidden, not easy. It will come to you when the time seems and feels right, blah blah blah." Jason said with a smirk. He wasn't mocking her just trying to make her smile. It was like a broken record that he heard over and over from his sisters. "I think your a great girl and a guy would be lucky to have you by his side for eternity. Your sweet, outgoing, caring, charming, beautiful even with your dark side your perfect Coraline." Jason admitted holding her in place. His words were from the heart, he really didn't care what she wanted to hear. Every time he spoke of what he thought girls wanted to hear in the past just left him lonely. It was time to do things differently. "He's foolish if he doesn't see all that." Jason added, even if he did during one point it should have never dissipated through time. At her question he looked into her eyes seeing them dazzle as they held the moon he sighed. "I don't know what I want, and by the time I do I'll be too old to realize it." Jason said sarcastically. "I try so hard to make every single one of those girls in the castle feel beautiful but at the end of the day. I'm sleeping alone, I don't get love owls. I don't get to experience love and kisses. No, I get a thank you your a great friend Jay." Jason said sucking his teeth a bit, now he was rambling. "I'd look forever to find something real, someone that was mine and would be there for me as I would them. Screwing up is part of life, I can do anything over and get the same result even with a million tries. My thought process doesn't change. I don't change...just time builds up and I hate having limits. The sky should be the limit you know?" Jason questioned. Then the question replayed in his head. "So when you ask would I want that if it would give me time and help me, sure I want it. But is that something you want to give me? More, would you leave my side? Alone to deal with it on my own?" Jason countered raising his eyebrow. Maybe he words were just a jumbled mess of emotions, but they flowed and made sense.

She'd never much thought about it, loving someone else, she had loved Damon with all she had at one point for it to just crumble beneath her wake without her being able to glue the pieces back together. She kept her face down and she leaned against him more, her fingertips of one hand running up and down his side as she thought and she listened. She listened to his words and she listened to the sound of his heartbeat. It was beautiful, the constant thudding sound in his chest, why would he want that to go away? Why would he want to become this monster? Every day she kicked herself in the ass for having said yes to Damon and she'd feel horrible if she created someone and ended up being just like him, leaving them in her wake. She sighed,"I try not to make promises for the fact that I do not know the future....but I would be able to tell you that I'd try my best to never leave you alone,"

[/b][/color] she said and she meant it, she was sincere in her words. She looked up at him with her big brown eyes and she skimmed her bottom lip with her teeth, if she did it, he could always stay in the hospital wing sick and she could bring him what he needed to make the cravings subside enough so he didn't hurt anyone while still in school or he could stay in his own bed and she could have someone deliver what he needed until he was better. She looked down allowing her light curls to topple into her face,"I'd be willing if it was truly what you wanted"[/b][/color] she whispered.[/blockquote]

Her answer wasn't fully reliable but something allowed him to trust her. Jason swallowed his spit. Maybe he should consult Julia before making this decision. Yet if he knew his sister well enough she'd talk him out of it even if it was what wanted. Jason had to think about everything being under age he wouldn't be able to move out, what about his families safety? Becoming a monster wasn't a smart decision but maybe he could stay at school during breaks and when he was old enough he explain why he was moving out right away. Jason didn't like too many complications, it made his decision harder. At least when Coraline was turned she had someone to love her and stay by her side even if it faded away with time. His gold eyes locked with her brown ones as he studied her face bringing his thumb to her lip tracing it. His body shivered a bit due to the weather and he got nervous about his answer. "Coraline..." Jason whispered looking down. There were so many things he had not done in life. "I can't die..I have accomplished many things in my 16 years and I could accomplish more with all the time in the world. But I am not dying a virgin." Jason stated looking into her eyes, how embarrassing would that be? The thought was sad for him to be in his mid teenage years and not ever having the chance to be..intimate but it was true. His cheeks tinted scarlet as he looked away now into the distance. It was not only that wouldn't people fear him? It was hard enough to get a girl to stay normally let alone being a monster. Then he came to the realization his thought was hypocritical, he had a gorgeous girl sitting in his lap at this very moment. What to do? Maybe he should try to make someone fall in love with him first then they couldn't deny his future condition. "Coraline..what makes you happy?" Jason asked looking into her eyes, it was a start.

She listened to him as he began to talk, well then why bring it up if you aren't ready for it? She sighed and she got to her feet and she took his hand pulling him to his feet before she let go of his hand and began walking toward the edge of the forest to leave the dark trees, she could tell he was getting cold even if he didn't say anything about it. She shrugged lightly at his last set of words, his question catching her off guard. She skimmed her bottom lip with her teeth and looked down watching her shoes crunch the snow beneath them,"I dunno what makes me happy, being loved I guess, but Jason if you're not ready for this then don't do it, don't inquire about it...just live"

[/b][/color] she muttered as she glanced over her shoulder at him,"If you have to ask yourself a million times what to do, then you're not ready and you can see it, in your face, the question in your eyes....you're not ready for something like this, hell I wasn't ready"[/b][/color] she said as she reached the edge of the trees and she walked over and sat at the water's edge of the lake. She looked down into the water watching it ripple and she tilted her head,"Besides you have a lot going for you, I'm sure you'll find whatever you desire soon enough"[/b][/color] she said pushing a hand through her hair as she sat there.[/blockquote]

Jason thought back to then he and Coraline first became friends, she wasn't open with everyone about her ability. But with him, she seemed to trust and it meant a lot. She gave her loyalty, and faith that he wouldn't judge her yet he never did nor would he. She was good to him, he could ramble off his feelings for Celia, just talk about anything. No, he wanted it. Jason followed Coraline to the lake's edge. When she spoke of how he was not ready he shook his head. "No, I am ready. Only if you'll stay, I don't want to make a mistake." Jason said looking down into her eyes as he put his hands on either side of her hips. "Your not like the rest of them...your so perfect. I can be myself around you. I don't want this chance to slip." Jason added looking over to the water. The stars reflection was beautiful. through the years he trusted her, why not trust her now? "I want to love you, I want to make you happy. But I can only do that if you let me...your special to me. You always have been. Don't tell me no now." Jason said taking in a breath. Even if he didn't get to be intimate before death a million chances with Coraline by his side would prevail over any situation. "Do it, I'm ready." Jason asked practically begging, if Coraline wanted love he could spend the rest of his life making one girl love him for everything he was. Show he as many times as he could they would be perfect. "Please.." Jason whispered tilting his head to the side exposing his jugular vain, it was time. In time he could control everything he was concerned about. It was a right now, stuck in the moment thing.

She looked at him when he began to speak again and she got to her feet turning to face him until she felt his hands on her waist and she narrowed her eyes in confusion. He spoke contradicting himself from his previous statements and yet she believed him, something made her believe every word that was coming off his lips. SHe skimmed her bottom lip with her teeth as she placed her hands gently on his chest and she leaned forward resting her forehead against his. She searched his eyes for any sign of hesitation, any glimpse of indecision but she found none. SHe was about to open her mouth to speak but then decided that words were not enough for this. SHe leaned in closing the space between them and she captured his lips in her own, one hand sliding to the back of his neck as she pulled him closer in a passionate kiss. Her eyes closed and she could feel her chest rise and fall unnecesarilly. She pulled away after a long moment and she looked into his eyes, to forever be a virgin....she'd heard of others like that, she wondered if he'd be able to tolerate it or hate her for it. She took a moment to consider before she smiled,"I'll never leave you as long as you keep your promise too...Jason I promise...please don't make me regret this"

[/b][/color] she whispered before she took his hand and she led him back into the trees, she couldn't do it directly on school property. When she was far enough in the forest with him she pushed him up against the nearest tree and tilted her head skimming her fangs over his perfect skin, feeling the pulsing beneath his warm skin made her saddened to have to be the reason it stopped but she took in a deep unnecessary breath,"I'm sorry for this pain"[/b][/color] she whispered before closing her eyes and sinking her fangs into his neck biting down just long enough for the poison to sink in and she kept one hand pressed against his chest holding him up while she gently slid the other into his hand allowing him to squeeze it for comfort.[/blockquote]